Internet Dateing.

I think I am a internet taunter or whatever. The main reason for this is because I have acctually only ever been on 2 internet dates. Yet because I am a bit lonely and don’t really have a sex partner at the moment, I find myself sending and receiving lots of naked pictures. 

Another thing that is corisponding with this is that my masterabation levels have jumped up a lot.

Is it weird that I am kinds finding stasis in this, like obvs i would like to be fucking but i just seem not to be able too… It’s been fucking a year though….

I guess I have a small problem, but again, wtf can one do, I’m working my ass off and at least, even though this is a bit fucked up and twisted, I am having virtual sex.

What are your opinions on this? Single 20 something year old males and females?

Are you fucking? Are you “keeping yourself happy”? Or are you just kinds catetonic. 

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Attention.

Why is a lack of attention soo horible, or is it just me being “over-sensitive”… I have emotions I feel them like I feel them, god, anyway.

Ive been working basicly 70 hour work weeks the past 3 weeks. So obvs I am tired and adjusting. 

Now I understand that other people also have their own shit going on, but in life its important for me to have balance. I always try to be as supportive as I can, I listen I learn, I bend my ways, but he just doesn’t  care.
Fuckit Im just gonne msg the poes and ask the fuck. 

Sitrep

How does one go about starting a company? 

I am in a currently stuck it feels to me sometimes that it is going to take forever to get to where I want to go.

Life when we start it promises us an endless pit of oppurtuanity, then we go through what they call “school” where we under go survere conditioning, and get molded into nice tiny worker bees.

Then we go off to university where we are told you can now go “explore” but here are the rules 

  1. “Your not allowed to do drugs, not only are they illeagle, but they are imoral too”. “But why mom” “I dont know son, the byble says so”
  2. You have to still act within the general rules off the system. 
  3. No “gaystuff”. 

How the fuck are you gonna go explore if (and there are many, I am just lazy to think) you still have to follow outlined rules.

Then you get a job, you fucking start makeing deth because “you have to buy a house someday”, then you buy that house, now you are kinda starting to hate your job, but you have this non compete, and this $2Milj house loan, soo you work…

And then soon you kinda die, first while you are still alive, and then finally for real.

And now we all have these dreams, and hopes for a better life…but is it for nothing, or is there a way out?

Hippies

My boss came to me like 5 days ago and kaked me out because I did another interview. He went on to say “in my opinion, I think your a hippy” asif that is an insult. 

I just kinda stood there, me a sexy 21 year old, next to this 2m long ,fat, drunk, idiot, flabber gasted with his delusions. 

Ive been busting my ass for his second tier company for two weeks, dressing nicely and all that, and he walks up to me and calls me a hippy, (I didnt find it insulting, but I knew what he ment by it).

Anyway, now the cunt wants a letter of comitment, and a bunch of bullshit im not gonna give to then, they under pay and over work me, im not commiting to shit. 

People complaining about being horny.

Christ in a cup, one of the most iritateing things on this planet is when a person (whom is not unattravitve) complains about strugleling with their sexual urges.

Good god man, go fuck a woman or something, its not asif the things are not out their wearing short skirts and asking for it (sorry ladies we love you but you have all become whores, not even speaking about all the gay men out there)

Now me, I have slept with a few people (like 4) and I enjoy sex when it comes along, but Ive never really gone out looking for it, or strugled with urges, it comes and it goes. 

I dont know…its a bit old school for me to still be soo under the control of your dick, your suppose to be able so see life clearly, and without constantly being obsessive about one or in some cases two things. 

Like I have said in previose additions, in bi and even though I am bi, I still dont think fucking everything is smart. I dont have idiotic ideologies that sex is a majestic thing supposed to only be done in marrige, but jae.
Just had to vent 
Peace

Its been a while

I have now been a slave to the system for about 2 weeks. 

I feel drained of creativity and energie, yet I find some enjoyment in my mundain life.

The job stimulates the perfectionist in me (although I hate that guy) and it allows me to be in control of people and things (I manage a restuarant). 

I hope to give you guys something intresting soon. 

Working

Soo I finaly found a job. I am now working as a restuarant manager for this semi-common place fairly close to where I live soo all is semi well. I work 16 hour shift and I earn say around $500 pm. Whoopy. 

I do still hope I get the cruise ships, and I still want too go travel.