Attention.

Why is a lack of attention soo horible, or is it just me being “over-sensitive”… I have emotions I feel them like I feel them, god, anyway.

Ive been working basicly 70 hour work weeks the past 3 weeks. So obvs I am tired and adjusting. 

Now I understand that other people also have their own shit going on, but in life its important for me to have balance. I always try to be as supportive as I can, I listen I learn, I bend my ways, but he just doesn’t  care.
Fuckit Im just gonne msg the poes and ask the fuck. 

Advertisements

Sitrep

How does one go about starting a company? 

I am in a currently stuck it feels to me sometimes that it is going to take forever to get to where I want to go.

Life when we start it promises us an endless pit of oppurtuanity, then we go through what they call “school” where we under go survere conditioning, and get molded into nice tiny worker bees.

Then we go off to university where we are told you can now go “explore” but here are the rules 

  1. “Your not allowed to do drugs, not only are they illeagle, but they are imoral too”. “But why mom” “I dont know son, the byble says so”
  2. You have to still act within the general rules off the system. 
  3. No “gaystuff”. 

How the fuck are you gonna go explore if (and there are many, I am just lazy to think) you still have to follow outlined rules.

Then you get a job, you fucking start makeing deth because “you have to buy a house someday”, then you buy that house, now you are kinda starting to hate your job, but you have this non compete, and this $2Milj house loan, soo you work…

And then soon you kinda die, first while you are still alive, and then finally for real.

And now we all have these dreams, and hopes for a better life…but is it for nothing, or is there a way out?

People complaining about being horny.

Christ in a cup, one of the most iritateing things on this planet is when a person (whom is not unattravitve) complains about strugleling with their sexual urges.

Good god man, go fuck a woman or something, its not asif the things are not out their wearing short skirts and asking for it (sorry ladies we love you but you have all become whores, not even speaking about all the gay men out there)

Now me, I have slept with a few people (like 4) and I enjoy sex when it comes along, but Ive never really gone out looking for it, or strugled with urges, it comes and it goes. 

I dont know…its a bit old school for me to still be soo under the control of your dick, your suppose to be able so see life clearly, and without constantly being obsessive about one or in some cases two things. 

Like I have said in previose additions, in bi and even though I am bi, I still dont think fucking everything is smart. I dont have idiotic ideologies that sex is a majestic thing supposed to only be done in marrige, but jae.
Just had to vent 
Peace

Its been a while

I have now been a slave to the system for about 2 weeks. 

I feel drained of creativity and energie, yet I find some enjoyment in my mundain life.

The job stimulates the perfectionist in me (although I hate that guy) and it allows me to be in control of people and things (I manage a restuarant). 

I hope to give you guys something intresting soon. 

How does it feel to have poeple that are sexually attracted to you? 

I am not a virgin. Lets get that out of the way right of the bat. I just sometimes wonder how the “man-whores” (what we other men like to call the lucky guys) can get laid at the push of a button, and then people like me, who in not unattractive, seem to strugle their dicks off. 

My my best friend / man crush, is like this, he has like 5 girls always ready to fuck him, he is currently on a clean streak from having sex…because he feels it got out of hand!! OMG…being a bitch much? 

Anyway, I guess my main problem is that I have strugles with going on dates and so forth because I kinda feel like I would “Cheat on” Jim, my best friend, because although he has a strick “no-sex” rule, we are basicly in a high fucntioning super emotional commited relationship. 

This above mentioned fact is a very big problem for me, because I either need to figure a way out to fuck this guy, or I probably need to get out of the friendship, and I don’t really want to do that. So I am kinda fucked. 

I got abit side tracked, my point is why are all people not bi sexual? Like I know the whole “we have to repopulate and thus being gay is wrong” but god dammit, I don’t want too marry a man, I just want to have some good old school fucking SEX!! Its litrally the best time past? Why not? “Uhm what are we gonna do now, man?” “I dont know lets fuck?” Boom clothes off have some rocking sex for 2 or 3 hours and go smoke a joint and play some call of duty? 

Is that too much to ask? If you have ever experimented with the same sex, you know its fun, and enjoyable? Yes its awkward at first, and what what but christ…He can cry (Littrally) on my shoulders…but no sex…

Anyway, if anybody in the world actually reads this, lemme know what you think!👇✍