Internet Dateing.

I think I am a internet taunter or whatever. The main reason for this is because I have acctually only ever been on 2 internet dates. Yet because I am a bit lonely and don’t really have a sex partner at the moment, I find myself sending and receiving lots of naked pictures. 

Another thing that is corisponding with this is that my masterabation levels have jumped up a lot.

Is it weird that I am kinds finding stasis in this, like obvs i would like to be fucking but i just seem not to be able too… It’s been fucking a year though….

I guess I have a small problem, but again, wtf can one do, I’m working my ass off and at least, even though this is a bit fucked up and twisted, I am having virtual sex.

What are your opinions on this? Single 20 something year old males and females?

Are you fucking? Are you “keeping yourself happy”? Or are you just kinds catetonic. 



How does one go about starting a company? 

I am in a currently stuck it feels to me sometimes that it is going to take forever to get to where I want to go.

Life when we start it promises us an endless pit of oppurtuanity, then we go through what they call “school” where we under go survere conditioning, and get molded into nice tiny worker bees.

Then we go off to university where we are told you can now go “explore” but here are the rules 

  1. “Your not allowed to do drugs, not only are they illeagle, but they are imoral too”. “But why mom” “I dont know son, the byble says so”
  2. You have to still act within the general rules off the system. 
  3. No “gaystuff”. 

How the fuck are you gonna go explore if (and there are many, I am just lazy to think) you still have to follow outlined rules.

Then you get a job, you fucking start makeing deth because “you have to buy a house someday”, then you buy that house, now you are kinda starting to hate your job, but you have this non compete, and this $2Milj house loan, soo you work…

And then soon you kinda die, first while you are still alive, and then finally for real.

And now we all have these dreams, and hopes for a better life…but is it for nothing, or is there a way out?


Why is it that we live in a world where people feel more convertoble sharing their feelings online and with psycologist than our frieds. Especially people from 1ste world counties such as the US and Europe?

Why is it that I can’t have tattoo’s and still have a corporate job? 

Why isit that we live in a world where attractions is controled and certian forms of it frowned upon? 

Why isit that goverment gets to have a say in well anything? Why can’t we just have a app where every big decision that they make we have to vote for first? Not the senate not the house of representatives ,us?

Why do we still follow the rules? 

Why can’t I have a police officer to arrest me that works for the party I voted for? Why do we allow fat, dumb, lazy people to join the police? Why is police training only 6 months long? 

How come I have too get 60% avg in high school to go study? When the school system is soo boring and mechanical you learn almost nothing you cant learn in random converstation? I have too pay for university if I turn out too be to dumb for it, then its my loss? 

Why do we worship people? And celebrities, that shape our culture in bad bad fucking ways? 

If you have awnsers to any of my questions please leave them in the comments below? 


Job seeking.

Probably the shitest thing to do is to acctually walk into companies and go ask for work. The level of rejection is crazy. 

I have spent the last 2 weeks actively looking for work, and it seems that nobody is hireing or you have to have a degree or at least 5 years experience. 

I don’t have a degree, because unfortuantly if I could afford one, I wouldn’t be looking for a sales jobs. I have experience but like I said nobody is hireing. What is a man to do? 

I thought about selling my body, but I feel I am not quite there yet. I tried useing my skills (Photography and Web Design) to work for myself, but people will rather use huge companies where there is no personal touch than give a brother a chance.

Our goverment has created a system where if your a white young male form the “lower” middle class you will fail and it sickens me to my core. Im hardworking, Im loyal, Im smart and experienced, but because of the BEE law companies have too hire previocly disabled people…

Its been 22 FUCKING YEARS!!!!! My generations had nothing to do with Apartheid yet we still suffer? Why am I suppose to pay for my “fathers” sins. And even worse than that I grew up in a liberal home, we are not raseist, my father was called Mandela in University due to his public disaproval of the Apartheid reigime. To put it into perspective for American or European readers, it would be like calling somebody Bin laden, Cuz the goverment considered him a terrorist as mush as yours considered Bin Landen a terrorist. 

Now 20 years later the young black population are burning down universities, saying we have “white privilage” and they want free education…I have no privilage, I cant find a job, my parents can’t afford university, I dont have a car, and Im generally poor. I had nothing to do with apartheid and I am not raceist.

I believe in equal right, not special rights, and if you think you have the right too burn down universities because you want free education YOU desirve to be exieled from this country!

Kinda beside the point I know. But I had too make this point. I hope too find a job soon, other wise my contribution to the world will be mute and I will be forced too end this iritation we call fucking “life”

Tell me your strugles, and what you did to start find a job, cuz clearly in not doing it right? 👇